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Well, it’s a bit late to be mentioning it, but I’ve had a lot of things on my plate this past week. I worked on my birthday (the 20th) and had other things personal things to take care of. Hell, I’m not even having my party with my friends until tomorrow. To be honest, I wasn’t really that excited about turning 20…I’d rather just skip being 20 and be 21, but that’s just me.

So anyways, now that I’m not a teenager anymore it got me thinking of how much I’ve changed since I was a freshmen in high school….and how much I might change after I graduate from college. So here’s a list of things that have changed/not changed…

What’s Changed?

1. I’m no longer in pain - well, for starters, I had a stomach condition for most of my high school life and even up until my first semester at college. I was CONSTANTLY in pain- even when I slept. It’s part of the reason why I went from making ‘A’ grades to making mostly ‘B’ ones. Well, that and my lack of interest for stupid shit you don’t need to know in real life.

2. I don’t give a fuck…sort of - I admit it. When I was in high school I was constantly worrying what people thought about me. I was paranoid that people would think that I was bulimic because I was throwing up so much, or that I was a drug addict because I always had to carry around a bag of pills in my pocket. I even remember getting into arguments with my parents about how lame my clothes were and why we couldn’t just spend more than $30 on a pair of shoes.

3. I’m less ugly - You can laugh all you want, but it’s true. I had a face full of acne, braces, and I weighed a measly 120 lbs when I was 16-17. It’s taken a lot of diet changes, some workouts, Proactiv, and time to get rid of those things but I’m actually not ashamed of my appearance anymore…well as much as I probably will ever be.

4. I have different beliefs - I no longer believe in right or wrong, love or hate, god or the devil, or that marijuana is evil. Getting away from all of my loser peers (if you’re reading this FUCK YOU) with the same types of beliefs really got me to think for myself. Looking back, it only makes sense that I started to take this blog seriously RIGHT after I graduated high school.

What Hasn’t Changed?

1. I’m still a smart ass - I was always known as either “the smart kid” or “the class clown” in basically every class I was ever in. I thought that would change in college, but no, I’m STILL cracking jokes in front of people in their 20’s and 30’s- and making them laugh. I remember having to give a speech for speech class and I basically said everything I mentioned in my Profanity In Music rant. I wish I had taped that shit, I must have said fuck and shit about 25+ times and I STILL got a motherfucking A+!

2. I’m still open-minded - I’ve always respected other people’s beliefs. Growing up as an interracial child, I learned that stereotypes just AREN’T true no matter what the media says. Knowing that there isn’t any right or wrong in the real world (only what’s socially acceptable and beneficial) has also opened me up to seeing people as individuals more than ever. I remember this one time when one of my teachers asked the entire class to close their eyes so that we would give our honest answer to some questions. One of them was “Raise your hand if you judge people” I remember my friend tapping me on the shoulder and when I opened my eyes, I realized I was the only one NOT raising my hand. I remember thinking…”Damn, why is everyone so fucking mean in this school?!”

4. I STILL hate people - Don’t get me wrong, I love you guys/gals. I Just hate all the ignorant stupid people too ignorant to realize that their stupid. (That was a joke…see…I misspelled the word “they’re” because….oh forget it, you’re probably one of those stupid people aren’t you?)

4. I’m still afraid of my parents - Yeah, it’s a hard thing to accept, but I guess I still am. I’ve gotten really good at keeping things secret from them because, well, I just don’t think they’d be able to handle the truth. Hell, they don’t even know I own this site for fuck sake! If they did, I’m sure my nosy mom would have me kicked out of the house. As for my dad, we still don’t get along, but at least I can joke with him now. He still puts me down on a daily basis, but now I’m, strong enough to just ignore it. Maybe one day I’ll tell him to shut the fuck up, but I don’t think that’s gonna happen anytime soon. As far as they know, I’m still the good Muslim boy who makes good grades, never cheats, never lies, never does drugs, and never uses profanity.

Did I mention I fucking CAN’T WAIT to move back out when school starts?!!!

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